Articulating my feelings
Today is 28th October 2024 my grandmother is admitted in hospital because she has broken her shoulder. I don't why I always ignore people there something in my mind always going around. I don't hate my class mates but there something in my head that always restrict me. I avoid talking because of the fear of judgement, anxiousness. I always think people will reject me. Nowadays I am pretty silent, teachers are boring. Getting jealous sometimes because my friends are better than me in talking I know it's sound funny but this is the place people won't judge me. I miss my classmates a lot I don't know if I close to someone there is always a thought that they would leave me I know I am not a talkative asset, don't text everybody on whatsapp. ignore people( thats my biggest regret in later life) but I am not a bad person I always like to support people but they didn't see this. Just I cut out some toxic people from my life. End